双重人🎭

难道我每天戴面具见人？
有时我早上起床是都觉得很不舒服，
都不知道自己昨晚在做，在说些什么，
觉得很不自己

快乐

快乐，开心的时刻就是那么的

享受，

棒，

无忧无虑，

自在，

觉得自己好正常。

2014 -> 2015

LOL...I was too busy with everything...sometime I feel like I have bitten more than what I can chew. Studies, coursework, group project, clubs and societies, French classes...I caused me to neglected my blog again. And now I'm here writing a post because I'm on my semester break. Not really a free break though but at least I got to travel to Cambodia last week and got some extra free time in between this week despite have to go to campus everyday for our group project.

Erm...about the Cambodia trip, personally it make me grows up. It's my first South East Asia trip though, and of course Cambodia is not a rich country. From there, I learn to appreciate what I have had and always remind myself to fight for my vision, my dream as I got the chance to do it. Besides I also starting to get the feeling and reason for a getaway trip. Before this I might think that travel have to be luxurious, expensive (Singapore, HK) but after this trip, I start to understand the real meaning of travel. It's to get away from our daily routine for a few days, forget about your burden, discover new places, learn new culture, meet new people, eat new food, relax, enjoy. It's cool and great after all.

离别

时间过的好快，一转眼就一年了，
在我离开的一年，大家过的好吗？

一年后的此刻，又有朋友要离开了，
去那美妙的国土，追求那个梦想。
我不知道你们的离去我是否习惯，
但是我是祝福大家的。

Announcement Day :/

I'm out of the Dean List for the first time since I stepped in University of Nottingham. The feeling was not good or perhaps bad. I can sense it when I nearly fail my maths paper in the first semester. I was not well prepared for it and of course I didn't finish the paper. I can't believe it, how can I score a perfect 100% in year 1?

I try....ya....I did tried my best for the second semester exam. But things not always go as what you think about, you plan to. All the coursework are killing me, my time. I ain't got time for my personal study and even tutorial. I know it was not my way of study but I still hope something good can happen. I wish. I study hard the whole day during the study week, from the first word of lecture one to the last word of the last lecture, but when exam approach, I feel like I have forgot what I have studied. It is not great, it was caused by the unfamiliarity to the material. I'm not a genius type of student, what I did is hard work. No more excuses, perhaps what I can do now is to fight and study hard for the upcoming academic year. Try to study and complete tutorial on the day itself despite being a nerd. I want to be back on the list badly. I wish I can be back. Fingers crossed.

在慢慢长大的过程中，我发现从小学习的人性平格都是错的。什么多事惹人讨厌，我说少事学不到东西。什么诚实老实得到信任，我说不守规矩得到青睐。乖学生=成功人士？这个平衡点，我还在捉摸，学习。

我不知道从几何时，我以不能在完成几个数学题里得到满足感。